she said don't i know you from the cinematographer's party?

tonight i spent a lot of time with the tarot and asked a lot of questions and the tarot gave me all the answers i thought i would get, but they are not the ones i wanted and now i'm a sad cat even though i'm listening to the say you love jesus cd, which is not a sad cad cd.
i really hope i'm racking up some serious karma points or something right now because this feels so icky and i will never get anything done if i just cry all the time.
i'm thinking hard about buying gauloises but i haven't owned cigarettes in months and the jury is out.
she looked me over and i guess she thought i was alright
alright in a sort of a limited way for an off night